1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?
See a live play. Saw RENT!

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for this year?
I didn't keep them but I attempted to. I will uphold this years' though._{For my own sanity...}

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not close to me perse, but yes.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Someone my girlfriend knew at one time died. Poor guy.

5. What countries did you visit?
Need moar Canada?

6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
More money, more cosplay, more cons, less stress.

7. What dates from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
RENT in June. Amazing sushi place in Salem in... Near the middle of the year I think. $1 Sushi nights on Sunday. Absolute heaven.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
... Um. You know. I shouldn't have to think this hard. But I suppose actually "officially" starting to date. That's a pretty big achievement, right?

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not graduating.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Multiple food poisonings, Salmonella poisoning with hospitalization and catching the Swine Flu, but not being hospitalized because my insurance ran out.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Gas for the car trips to friends I need to see more often. x3

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
My own! Um, no. Maybe? I dunno. How do you celebrate behavior?

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Appalled? Plenty of people. I was shocked a lot this year. Depressed? Ehh, certain days where I'd just feel pretty put-out I suppose.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Gas. XD Fuck that gas, man. Fuck it royally.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
I got excited about doing cosplays! And then I realized I'm piss ass broke and still in high school and got all bummed again. SOON THOUGH. VERY SOON.

16. What song will always remind you of 2009?
Um, shit. You know, anything by Lady GaGa. She stormed through and dominated, man. And La Vie Boheme.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you...
a) ... happier or sadder? Happier. Fuck man, way happier.
b) ... thinner or fatter? Fatter. By a good 10 pounds. Ugh. x_x
c) ... richer or poorer? Poorer but richer in having things like friends and love I didn't before.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Exercise and graduating.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Sitting on my ass.

20. How will you be spending [enter winter religious holiday of your choice]?
Probably with friends. Screw 3/4 of my family. x_x My friends are all I need.

21. How will you be spending New Year's Eve?
<eyetwitch> Slide off, slide it off...

22. Did you fall in love in 2009?
I fell in love every time I talked, saw or heard from the best thing that ever happened to me in my life, ever.

23. How many one-night stands?
0. She'd have fuckin' killed me, guys! D: Well, not after she kicked their ass anyway...

24. What was your favorite TV program?
TOPPA TENGEN GURREN LAGANN! POINT YOUR DRILLS TO THE SKY!

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Just the one who continues to deserve my hate. I don't hate the other one as much as I did before. I just sort of despise him.

26. What was the best book you read?
Anything by Anne Bishop or on a totally different scale, Lilith Saintcrow. A LOT of her books crept onto my bookshelf.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Assassin Creed II's OST? RENT or Wicked's soundstracks? No, I kid. Um, Imeem dropping off the face of the earth made me get around to torrenting all my old stuff. So really, music nostalgia of most of the bands I loved years ago.

28. What did you want and get?
Unconditional love. Just... honest to god. If not even romantically, I wanted love that didn't come with a price or prerequisites or something I had to sacrifice. And I got it.

29. What did you want and not get?
Emotional security and money. Two important things for this life I'm living.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
AVATAR You have no idea. I want to LIVE that movie. JAKE IS ME. ONLY MALE. AND NAMED JAKE SULLY. AND A MARINE. AND PARAPLEGIC. AND TOTALLY MORE AWESOME TO GO TO ANOTHER PLANET.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I was 19 and I celebrated with close friends who matter .

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Having money to be able to do things I can't. That ultimately includes theater, cons, car.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
"Hide the fat".

34. What kept you sane?
My girlfriend and World of Warcraft. XD

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Lady GaGa (c'mon! She's cool!) and P!nk.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
H1N1-Swine Flu. Mostly because I laughed about people who freaked out about it and then got it myself... 105 temperature, let me tell you, is no laughing matter.

37. Who did you miss?
Friends I don't get to see often but I feel are possibly my closest friends.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Met in person: Pey, Mina and Morgan. Otherwise known as Arranax, Jaenelle and Crysha. XD

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:
To get through the tough stuff you need to love and trust yourself before you love or trust others.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year...
To days of inspiration, playing hooky, making something out of nothing
The need to express, to communicate
To going against the grain, going insane, going mad

To loving tension, no pension, to more than one dimension
To starving for attention; hating convention, hating pretension
Not to mention of course hating dear old mom and dad
RENT - La Vie Boheme (Perfect really)



First day of class was today. Shockingly, I was told by all my teachers that I was having an "amazing start" for the year. I'm quite proud of myself, actually. I got a ton of stuff done today.

I've also actually felt more and more compelled to start writing again. I'm seeing scenes in my head in a narrating voice that's telling me how to word it, going back through, rewording it.. I remember again why I wanted to be a writer. I wanted to share my brain.

Also, I was thinking about doing a vlog thing. I wasn't sure what to do it on, but I thought maybe going over my day at the end of the day would help me be less stressed? Maybe looking at a couple of tutorials to edit video.

It also attributes that I was asked about a time frame I really should have remembered and I had to spend longer than I would have liked actually remembering it. I don't like not being able to remember the time around my own birthday. I think the facebook and twitter thing will help too.

I really, really hope.

Has anyone ever heard of food to help with memory? I went shopping today and actually bought good healthy snack foods (like crackers ) and on the same hand, not so healthy snack foods (like fudge pies. FML )

Ahh well. C'est la vie~ x3

HOLMES:
First, the movie was excellent.

Second, so gay. Seriously. The longer I watched my brain kept pointing out some SERIOUS gay subtext. I don't know if they intended it, if Guy Richie wanted it there or the more I search, if it was actually part of the novels.

Apparently Holmes and Watson were... close.

... Right. back to the movie. Jude Law and Robert Downey Jr. Yes please. Amazing actors.


HOLIDAY #1 Christmas:
I won't list my gifts, because that's petty. I will say that I now have ODST, which means my multiplayer campaign will RULE AGAIN BITCHES. For anyone interested in playing.

... I won't mention I spent it with my mother. Or that my niece is becoming exactly what I hoped she wouldn't. Or that I really despise that side of my family. How I'm more and more convinced I'm the NORMAL one. Or how my gifts to them were thoughtful and considerate and how theirs to me were cheap, poor and "Oh, we need a gift for Kara. Here, let's take it out of the 'extras' pile". You can defend them... But I watched them do it. That was most depressing of all. They did it in front of my face.

So, in other words, I did my time. I went because my sister begged for sanity. No more.

HOLIDAY #1 New Years:
I. WANTED. TO. PARTY. Not sit on my ass and watch the ball drop on MTV with those skanky bitches kissing at me in front of the camera. I wanted to be out with friends. I wanted to be standing and jumping and eat cheap food while I laughed until my sides split.

Instead, I got to brood. Alone.

And raid. On WoW. That was the highlight of my night. I christened the New Year with the Trial of the Champion 25 man achievement. And spent time with friends (online?) I don't get to visit very often because gas is expensive and I don't drive. I was -charged- with energy. Then the more the night lagged on I spun my wheels while I ground out tier pieces for my girlfriend because she asked my assistance. It was a good way to relieve frustration and spend time with her. And oh, yes, I was incredibly FUCKING frustrated.

But I have a New Year's resolution: Don't dwell. So, I won't. I will let it slide off me.







RAWR HAPPY TIMES, RIGHT?!

So yeah! Um.

4chan.

Don't ask me what POSSIBLY made me go there. I think it was a friend saying how a picture of hers made it on the /c/ thread and I was curious about the /c/ thread, so I went.

And got distracted by the cosplay thread._[link]

It was either people asking real, honest questions (ON 4CHAN? REALLY?!), posting up Title posts, and then there was this... one... I was grossed out. I literally sat and SHUDDERED. _{View at own digression[link]}

I honestly can't believe I spent 2 hours just... looking. And recognizing faces. XD In good ways, surprisingly. I went there looking for some dirt to dish to myself and chortle about (does that make me a troll? Wanting to know other peoples' dirty laundry?) and ... Just wow. 4chan is a special place.

Like ED.

I'm not really sure where I'm going with this journal post. I just figured I hadn't bored you guys with awhile and seeing as I want to enjoy the rest of my vacation and not cram out homework, journal postin' time!

I think I'm actually gonna hard core look on how to post stamps. I STILL don't get it.